It’s hard to believe that it has been almost an entire year since the hip-hop community lost the Grammy-nominated rap legend– DMX. But, for his fiancée Desiree Lindstrom, everything in her world completely changed the day she lost DMX.
Now, the still-grieving woman is opening up about losing her soulmate and raising their son alone.
During her appearance on the It’s Tricky with Raquel Harper podcast, Lindstrom revealed that 11 months after his passing, she is still struggling with grief.
“I haven’t moved on,” she said.
She added, “It’s hard, you know? It’s really hard. I just take it minute by minute. Some people say you could take it day by day, but it’s second by second. My life changed so fast in the blink of an eye.”
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Lindstrom is the mother of DMX’s 5-year-old son Exodus, who she revealed in the podcast with Harper, is battling stage-three kidney disease and is currently in stable conditions.
“Sometimes it’s hard, just looking at him. He has so many different qualities of his father,” she stated. “So when I do shed a tear, he’ll be like, ‘Mommy, are you OK? And I’ll say, ‘You just did something that was like your father.’ And he’s like, ‘Mommy. It’s OK. Daddy’s with God. He’s watching over us. He’s our angel.’ I just thank God that he gave me a son that is like that. He’s just like his dad.”
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According to host Harper, Lindstrom and DMX were together for 10 years and lived as if they were married with Exodus.
“One thing that Earl taught me was, who gives a f— what people got to say about you? I knew that he loved me, he knew that I loved him. “I feel like we [were] married. A piece of paper ain’t s—. Our love was real. He was there for me, I was there for him, and people know what the f— it was, period,” Lindstrom said.
According to People, after DMX’s death, Lindstrom got the memorial tattoo “Dog Love” and an “X” in the same font that the rapper used to stylize his name.
She also paid tribute to DMX on Valentine’s Day– posting on Instagram.
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DMX was 50 years old when he passed away on April 9, 2021, at White Plains Hospital in New York after suffering a heart attack.
